My weekend.....SAYF!

It was a long, but pretty ok drive down to Atlanta. We got there around 11:30 and tackled people with hugs! Of course this time again Ellen was my first hugger! I love that girl.
That more people arrived and I hugged a lot!
Surprise surprise...Colin Ulin in the flesh...with a beard, but still pretty attractive.
I hugged him for the first time (literally the first time one-on-one) and it was nice! He and Phorest give awesome hugs! Just sayin'.
Something about this retreat wasn't as good as SAYF is, but the people rock.
I met a gay guy from Chapel Hill. His name is Charlie (yes I know what you're thinking, I thought it too). He's so cool! He was always happy. LOL!
The drive back was longish, but oh well.
So yeah. We need to hang tomorrow and you'll get stories!

Life and horribly scheduled weekends!

Still looking for a guy! No luck. Oh well. I have a lot of things to occupy me.

I need to write my essay and three-hole punch/organize everything and I'm done with my Psychology binder!!!!!

SAYF is this weekend......AHHHHHH! So excited! Friday will be slow most likely.
Hopefully newbs come! Hot newbs....who are 16 preferably.

All Regional band was rescheduled to the 28th - 30th. Districts better be at Central or I will die a little inside. Then I would have to make a decision to go where. I'm leaning toward Districts, but if by luck I will hopefully be able to go back and forth from tests to rehearsal, from quick recall to concert to awards ceremony. It's gonna be a fun day!

nostalgia and letting go.

Has anyone looked at the list of things that people tag their posts as? It's really kinda sweet, bittersweet. GUYS we've been friends for too long to just give up on each other.

I really love all of you and we need to do something together, soon. I'm missin the old days a little.

Yeah....movies.

Tip: NEVER say there's 20 minutes of previews before the movie starts because that would be too long of a wait before the movie actually starts. I'd be smart and say that there's 10 to 15 minutes of previews. Trailers are short, so it seems like it's a long time from all of the trailers, but really, it couldn't be 20 or even 30.

Yeah. This post was written because we were late to Avatar in 3D last night. I went in and didn't know what was going on a little bit. We just HAD to see the 3D and not know what happened. We got there at 6:45. We could've seen the 7:10 showing of the 2D version and actually know what was going on. I should've bought the ticket to the next showing and see the beginning.
But still....Avatar pwned. Over $1 billion earned in gross revenue.

Sorry.

Sorry, Hannah. I can't believe how much we (I) have let you down. I guess I'm just glad that you still reached out, because we do care about and want to help you.

Depression isn't something you can try to figure out. When you feel that down, the only thing to worry about is how to get better again. It doesn't mean you're weak (which is what I tend to label myself as when I feel low) or too sensitive, or whiny, or whatever. It's a thing that sometimes happens, and when it does it's not because you're "bad." And reaching out is the best thing you can do to help yourself.

I'm going to call you soon, and make time to spend some time with my sister. I love you, kid.

Sorry I haven't taken better care of you, or even seen you for that matter. That'll change.

Stay strong. You've got people to help you through anything you need us for.



P.S. Laura- you're right! This year hasn't been all bad. I know I haven't seen you guys all that much, but chillin with you is always awesome.

Together We'll Dance in the Dark.

If you thought none of us have ever felt that way, well, you can stop that now.

I cried for no reason last night, FYI. I don't know why. Times are a hell of a lot better for me than they have been in a long time. I have a loving boyfriend, wonderful friends, a pretty okay home situation, and no school (at the moment.) I'm happy, right?

Yes, most of the time.

Then what are those red lines doing on my legs again?

Talk to us, darling. If you talk, we'll listen. We love you. I think some of us are just afraid we'll be pushed away, and that's most people's instinct. I don't blame you for that.

I don't know how much help we can give you, but what I do know is that when I feel helpless, I'd much rather have my friends around than some professional. Therapy didn't do anything for me. I need people who actually understand what's happening even if I can't tell them. That's why we're friends, right? Because we understand each other.

I can't do anything until I see you again but that'll be soon and I sincerely hope things improve. I love you, and I can't stand to see people I love in pain.

New year thoughts!

At the beginning of the year, I was pissed because the parents at a party allowed unfairness to happen in a game in favor of a 3rd grader.
I'm over that......though I want that trophy....just a little bit though. Not so much I'm obsessed, but it'd be nice to have it. Oh well.

Then somebody kicked in our back door on the Monday back at school during the one hour nobody was home. Funny thing is.....my room was the only room raided. Only 40 DVDs and 14 video games stolen. At first one would think (Lame!), but if they sell them at about $20 each, it's over $1,000 worth of disks.....except for Guitar Hero III, which is still in my PS2. I have all of the huge electronical stuff away. I don't use them much. It made me a bit paranoid, but that feeling is fading. You all know the story.
I still wonder why my room and that somebody who wasn't welcome was in it. Maybe they know me or IDK? They probably saw all of my DVDs in the window. They left the rack. I put it in my closet with HP6 and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (the one they dropped in our driveway).
I moved my trophies and medals away from the sight of the window so somebody else can't see those.

Moving on. Kentucky seriously needs to get the picture and send a hot 16 year old (preferably) sophomore guy with a nice body, toned biceps, cute arse, nice long YEAH! and is gay.
Because I'm too lazy to chase people, who could be the wrong people. So I'm waiting!

Yeah!

Snow days!!! The first in ever!

It's nice.

I go back to gymnastics at 3 pm! So excited!

let's not think about tomorrow.

I don't why...
But.
I've been so depressed lately.
Even though it doesn't seem like it.
I hate feeling sad and not knowing why.
That's my least favorite thing.

I just feel that I need someone.
Someone that I can talk to.
I mean that I can really talk to.
And I used to think that I could do that with you guys.
But I just don't know.
I feel that I have to keep everything away.
It's not healthy for me.

I haven't felt this upset since....
Well, that whole thing where Dylan just stopped talking to me.
I got off the computer for an hour today,
Just so I could go down to my room and cry.
I've NEVER had just a random urge to cry.
Why now?
Why me?
Just... why?

Someone please help me.
please.
I don't understand what's wrong with me.
I don't think that you guys have ever felt this way...
But I just need someone to talk to.
Don't be afraid to call me or text me if I'm not Facebook.

I would appreciate it more if you guys tried to contact me outside of facebook.

"We're all fallen, but at the same time we're not broken. There is the hint that we are going to get up again."


xo

-Hannah

First Post of 2010!

And so, we of the phunk enter a new year. And new time. A new hope. A new tale to be told...

Or something like that anyway. ;)

So... It seems like we kinda abandoned this thing over the past semester... Not that I blame anyone. I mean, who can worry about a blog when you've got Bio work to do? :P

Ugh. It's been a rough year, hasn't it? I'm fairly sure that I've gained an anxiety disorder from it... (Is it normal for your hands to constantly tremble uncontroably? I didn't think so...) Mainly cause for me, I've dealt with everything going around with us, and with several outside things that you may or may not know about. And that I'm not going to elaborate on.

But there really has been a lot going on, and when I feel stressed, I tend to shut down... So sorry if you've felt like I've been neglecting or being bitchy towards you... It's the stress talking, I tell you!

All in all though, the year could have been worse... It wasn't all bad. Let's see if we can find some good things:

-Tay and Tim worked things out between them and now seem to be doing well. (Am I right?)

-Our friends group seems to have resolved most lingering animosity towards one another. (Luv you all!)

-Braden and I went to SAYF. T'was fun.

-Hannah and I have sent countless numbers of fanfics back and forth. A good fanfic is good for the soul... Okay, maybe not the soul...

-One word. TROLLIN! (I really hope that people from our school don't get on here... Though really, why would they?)

-Academic team has been fun. And the forum!

-American Idol this year was so much fun to watch. Especially since Hannah made sure that I never missed it there near the end...

-Biology has been very entertaining, dispite whatever stress it has caused.

-Psych class! Soooo much fun!

-Dinner out every Wednesday! I loved doing that... I think we should still do it every so often.

-Stories! I wrote a LOT on the Road Trip story this year. For me anyway. Not to mention my other story... That will soon be posted online, btw.



See? Not all bad. We've had a lot of fun. :D

Anything anyone wants to add??