Gerard thanks you.

A thank you from Gerard is like a cookie from God. (nuff said)

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Jonas bros. just came on the radio!!! D:

Tay-Tay! Gerard wants you to put the following on the playlist...

~Welcome to the black parade (der der)
~Teenagers
~famous last words
~disenchanted
~How I disappear

AND I WANT YOU TO PUT

Face down & your guardian angel By The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus on there.

So long and good and good night!

SEX!

Okay, now that I got your attention. HOW DARE YOU NOT PUT MCR ON THAT PLAYLIST!!! DO YOU NOW HOW BAD THAT MAKES GERARD FEEL!?

But anyway guys, whattup? (besides the sky, smartasses).

LEKEY! HOW DARE YOU CHECK OUT OF SCHOOL! Jake and I were so sad during 6th.

And um, I was just talking to a friend of mine from church on YIM and me and her are officially in war over Gerard.

And now I'm done.

Bye

Adios.

Beat it, NOW!

Oh yeah!

PUT MCR ON THE PLAYLIST!!!

Now that is all

Music unite us, if only for a bit

Well, now that we are sort of the 'DePhunct Sisters' (defunct is a word, look it up) this playlist seems like a groovy idea. But the real reason I posted is because:

TAYLOR FORGOT SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you're gonna have a playlist involving me whatsoever, it had better have Snow on it.

Even if we are falling apart, its okay. Seasons and people, relationships and weather... all of them change. It might suck, but its just life. C'est la FRICKIN vie. It might hurt, and in this case it does. But all we can do is make it okay for each other, even indirectly. By not being too harsh.

Oh, who am I kidding? I don't know anything about this! Sorry-sorry everyone. Yeah this hurts. I hate it. I don't know what to do. We'll get through though. We'll get through. :-/ I hope.

Love youz.

DRY ICE!!! j/k. I mean, Musical Ideas.

I don't know why I've waited so long to post this. I guess.. I don't know. I felt like... It wasn't my place? Maybe.
Well, considering I seem to be the only PhSi that's completely UN-ish, I guess it is my place. Hmm.
As always, I've described the situation through music...

Ok, I don't really have the right to put words in you guys' mouths, but I've come up with some from different people's POV's.

Heather's POV: (t.A.T.u.: Loves me not)

"I complicated our lives
By falling in love with him
I complicated our lives
Now I'm losing my only friend
I don't know why, I had to try
Living my life on the other side
Now I'm so confused
I don't know what to do

He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me, She loves me not
He loves me, He loves me not
She loves me..."

And here's another t.A.T.u. song, All The Things She Said, for Laura...
"All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
Running through my head
Running through my head
(Running through my head)

All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
Running through my head
(Running through my head)
This is not enough"

The whole song doesn't really work.. But this bit does.

I'm trying to find a song for the rest of us, the ones on the outside, but I can't think of one...
Unless...
I don't know if this is everyone's feelings, but it's kind of mine...

"Think of what you're saying
You can get it wrong and still you think that it's alright
Think of what I'm saying
We can work it out and get it straight, or say good night
We can work it out
We can work it out

Life is very short, and there's no time
For fussing and fighting, my friend
I have always thought that it's a crime
So I will ask you once again

Try to see it my way
Only time will tell if I am right or I am wrong
While you see it your way
There's a chance that we may fall apart before too long
We can work it out
We can work it out"

I think my musical spiel is finished. BUT! I made a phunksisters account on Project Playlist. If you want the password, message me on MySpace or Gaia. The playist I'm currently working on is "Chicken Soup for the Phunk Sister's Soul." It consists of "Our Songs." The other one is just our favorite songs, and if you want to add to either you can. (After you get the password, of course.) If I can figure out how, I'll put it in the sidebar somewhere...

I can't wait until our little gathering on Sat. I hope it will clear some things up...

Um...
DRY ICE!!! DRYYYY ICCCEEEEE!!!!!!

Mad world

WHAT THE HELL!? WHY!? WHY, WHY, WHY??? I CAN'T EXPRESS HOW PISSED I AM RIGHT NOW!!! HEATHER I CAN FINALLY SAY THAT YOU MADE ME CRY. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU WOULD DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS. THAT'S GOING TOO FAR. I'VE ENOUGH OF ALL THE SHIT I'VE HAD TO PUT UP WITH FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS.

Okay, I'm calm now, I can't believe this, Why? What did I do? Where did I go wrong?

Wait. I didn't do anything...

In the Begining (before heather and hime started dating) Sebastian asked If anything could break up the Phunk... and now that this is happening... I think this was his intention. To break up the phunk. So Congrats Sebastian, you suceeded. I hope your f'ing happy. You've destroyed the phunk.

Here are some lyrics that fit me at this very moment.

"And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world"

That's from "mad world" by Gary Jules (at least I think that's his name)

*I took the liberty in changing the heading for our blog (I was getting kind of sick of Blog no jutsu!) You can change if you want to.

**you all also may not like the new blog colors (you can change them if you want to.)

Bye. I'll post again soon.

Resignation.

I am resigning from the phunk. I don't really deserve to be in it, I broke the trust of one of my fellow sisters and made her upset and somewhat ruined her chances at happiness, which I'm sure breaks some unwritten rule that we have. so before I resign I would like to write one that states the following:



You may not purposefully make another member of the phunk upset, sad, depressed or any other emotion that should apply to negativity, except anger because we all know that is unavoidable especially when you're us.



Okay so I have created a rule of the Phunk I guess that you all can vote on it whenever, but my vote wouldn't count seeing as of 1...2...3....Now, I am no longer a member of the phunk. I love everyone of you and I hope all of your problems get better at some point in time. I have a message for each of you and a lovely little poem that I wrote when I decided to do this.



Lekey: I love you, and thank you for talking to me in world civ., and at lunch these past few days, that time has really helped me try and think that everything was normal and helped me from falling into a crumpled heap of emotion, which we all know I've done a few times recently. Oh yeah and orange crush hoodies *tee hee*



Taylor: Thank you for taking the time the other day to hear me out and I thank you for somewhat supporting me seeing as you can somewhat relate to it. I also thank you for every time you have ever sang to me to comfort me it truly works and makes me calm down and think maybe it's not so bad. Maybe you should tell Tim whats wrong more often because he really loves you and wants to help, the only thing is he thinks he can fix everything because he's a guy, and as you and I know no matter how much they want to they can't. I love you, Taylor and I hope that you somewhat try to take that little amount of advice.



Laura: I did something very wrong to you and would do anything to have a time machine to go back and fix it, I've known you since about kindergarten and have been a loyal friend to until know, I only did one thing but I think it was one of the worst things I could have done to you,and it hurts me that I did it to you, it make same feel like the worst person in the world. You have been nothing but loyal to your friends and i know that it hurts to find out that the loyalty is not being returned. You have proved a very good friend to me for the past four years, and a very sturdy support for when times were rough for me which is pretty much always. Yesterday I could tell you were trying to be nicer and it felt good to me somewhat except of course the glares but I deserve them so its fine. I can't express to me how much that meant to me that you were trying when I didn't deserve anything, Laura you are the nicest person I know and I love you.



Hannah: We've been friend since we were two years old and we have gone through everything in the world together, I can't tell you how angry it makes me when you are upset and frustrated I get when I can't help, Hannah you as you know have been my bestest, best, best friend for twelve years, and we have had many fights but I wouldn't trade the world for the memory of them. I love you a lot and I hope more then anything that the world and your problems get better for you, and if truly necessary I can try and do something for you even if I'm not in the phunk anymore. Hannah please try to not be so sad all the time because I will be watching over you from the background, and I don't want to have to break my new set boundary and either kick someones ass or help make you happy.



Okay well here is that poem thingymabob, and good bye guys.

Welcome to my home. Hell within the dome. People with black robes passing by. Couldn't see past their mask, even if you try.

See the smiles on the real ones face? See the tears leaving their trace? See the red glowing eyes behind the mask? See the blue eyes of the Angels after his task?

In ones face, the one with the tear trace. The one with the red eye. The one who refuses to really cry. The one with the blood all over their robe. The one known threw out the globe. The one with the small smile on his face. A smile hidden behind her mask. A smile, one not to ask. A smile hidden in the heart. The one whom lives with a missing part. The red eyes will turn blue only past the mask can you see what’s true. The mask of emptiness. The mask of cold. The mask as hard as gold. The mask full of the lies told. A dark mask for a dark heart. But not if your really smart. Look behind the red eye. You will see what wants to cry. You will see an Angel fly. You will see a wounded heart die. You will see, an Angel behind a Demons eye.

~Heather formally of the Phunk

This one's for Laura

You are allowed to feel however you feel. I am not the one giving you this permission, its your natural right as a human being. You seem to often put everyone else before you, especially feelings-wise, and thats just being considerate. Honestly I admire that ability. But it seems like a catch-22, because you need to make sure to take care of yourself as well... and that can be hard when you're the one taking care of everyone else. You're just as important as every other person in the world.

You're one of my best friends, make sure you take good care of yourself.

And most importantly: I love you. We all do. That's right, all of us.

I'm sorry (again)

So I don't really know what to say, well I guess I do. I understand that I am a terrible person and deserve the treatment I received today, but that doesn't mean it didn't crush me into a million pieces, because I don't have loving parents or a close family who make me feel loved you guys are all I have.

I'm sorry that I yelled in the gym this morning, but I found out at about nine last night that my grandmother is dying, and I was crying when people started to bother me, and it felt worse when no one even asked me why or tried to give me any comfort you guys just sat down a few rows from me and laughed like everything was okay.

Laura I understand your treatment towards me , and yo didn't really have to have Brendan tell me you didn't hate me, and it would have been more believable if you would have at least tried to say something to me. I know I don't deserve to make any requests but if you don't want to be my friend anymore I would like for you to tell me. If you all really want I can leave the Phunk and not even post anymore, because the treatment I received today made me feel very unwanted, and I guess I understand so if you all could just let me know then the horrible person i am will get out of your alls lives and stop messing everything up.

A Loverly Listie-Pie

I don't know. I just don't know.
I wasn't going to post, because it doesn't seem right for me to be the first one to post about this situation, but as we learned from October Sky, "A rocket won't fly unless someone lights the fuse." So I guess I'd better light the fuse.

My feelings are as follows. (Another list.)

1. I understand Laura feeling resentful.
2. I understand Heather feeling like Laura should hate her.
3. I understand Laura not hating Heather, because you guys have been friends for a long time.
4. It all happened in the past. I find it ironic that nobody was mad until Heather told us about it. I mean, we can't change what happened in the past, but we can make our future better than our past. (fortune cookie moment!) You can sit there fretting about what you could have done differently, but you'd be better off changing the present.
5. I know the situation is different, what with you guys being friends and such close friends at that, but my one rule for Laura: Don't become a Chloe. As I know from experience, Heather already has enough guilt on her, and that will only be added to if you hate her, call her bad things (I know you wouldn't), avoid her, etc. The best thing you can do for either of your consciences is to forgive her. See number 4.
6. Laura needs to express her emotions more. You've got your auras, and I've got empathy. At least slightly. But empathy means you actually feel the subject's feelings. I'm pretty sure that's what happened at lunch. How is a person supposed to send positive energy when she feels sad enough to cry for a week?
7. I am Switzerland. I guess Switzerland is just neutral, probably not a peacemaker, so I guess I'm the UN. I'm the UN of the Phunk Sisters. Hooray. *sarcasm* Realy I just made this one because I wanted 7 items. 7 so it's odd for Laura, but 7 is the odd number that Heather likes, so it's perfect! Hey, the UN doesn't have it too bad off. They even have their own flag!

That's all I got. Don't you think Mrs. Graham has a really annoying voice?

How long? how loooong?

The title of this post is from an RHCP song (suprise suprise). It's a sad one, which seems to fit our situation, unfortunately. As usual, I think Tay-tay is right. About essentially everything, that wise maiden. (MAIDEN!!!)

Hannah please please don't switch schools. Then you'd have to start all over, and when you leave people (even without the intent of growing apart from them) things become distant quickly. Trust me on that one. Anyway, we need to brainstorm about Logan and Keyser. How are we gonna contact them now that Ms. McCay moved us and that other unnamed HOFACE bitch decided to clean the tables today???

Laura I feel distanced from you lately, which needs to be fixed. My whole reason for coming back to school was to be able to see my friends more. So let's hang out more!! I MISS YOU! O_O You and one other person are tied for my favorite Republican, lol. Guess who the other person is? :D

Today we had a gorgeous sub in Ms. Turner's class. I feels sorry for the Ms. Kennerly people.

Guess what I've been trying to do? Not use the words "I", "me" or "my" as often. Not only is that just a good practice, but there's a study that shows people who use those words more often are at higher risk for a heart attack. Sounds crazy as hell, but hey! Why risk it?

That's all for today. Sooo... I'll pull this rambling ridiculous posting to and end.

P.S. Holy shiznit! Did you look at the list of postings for October? theres a LOT.

Indigo Girls, Forgive Me

I'm sorry I can't express facial expressions over the internet, but if I could, you'd see sadness, mixed with anger, betrayal, and... sympathy. Since we seem to be in a list-making mood, I guess I'll try my hand.

1. Me and Laura philosophized today in Science that NONE OF OUR LIVES CAN BE PERFECT UNLESS ALL OF OUR LIVES ARE PERFECT. Current example: Hannah is chronically sad. So even those of us who seem happy can't be happy because one of us is sad. Does that make sense?

2. Lekey knows this too: this is the time of our lives when we belong to ourself and our friends. We don't want to belong to our parents anymore, but (don't contradict me) we aren't quite ready to belong to a husband. Heather, shut up.

3. The less I seek my source, the closer I am to fine. This is from and Indigo Girls song. I just listened to two of their songs, and their power overwhelms me. I'll put some lyrics here:

From Closer to Fine
And the best thing you've ever done for me
Is to help me take my life less seriously
It's only life after all
Yeah

Well, darkness has a hunger that's insatiable
And lightness has a call that's hard to hear
I wrap my fear around me like a blanket
I sailed my ship of safety 'till I sank it
I'm crawling on your shores
...
There's more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in a crooked line
And the less I seek my source
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine



Then there's this other song called "Galileo" which is about reencarnation, but I think some things apply to us too.

How long 'till my soul gets it right
Can any human being ever reach that kind of light?
I call on the resting soul of galileo
King of night vision, king of insight


4. Hannah, DON'T YOU DARE CHANGE SCHOOLS.
I don't want to offend you more than I apparently already have, but I somehow don't think the people at Southern would accept you any better than the people here. Stick with the people that do accept you, because you need them.

5. On the subject of Terra's bitch-ness and Tory needing a slap across the face: Don't take out your negativity on people who don't deserve it. They're doing what they want to. Just because that doesn't include you, doesn't mean they personally hate you. If you were going out with someone, and there was this girl who was your friend's friend, and kind of your friend, and you knew she liked the person you were going out with, you certainly wouldn't make her any special provisions.

6. Terra has problems like you do, but kind of opposite. Whereas your problem is that you really like someone but they don't like you, Terra's is that she kind of likes a bunch of people and they kind of like her, but not enought either way to make either party happy. So take that into consideration.

7. Self-injury is not a healthy form of expressing your anger either. JSYK.

8. I didn't do a thing to your post. I just said I would. There's a difference.

9. Tags need commas in between them. JSYK.

Forgive me. I love you. I need you. I try my hardest. I love you.

My List

1. Hannah please don't switch schools, I love you, you matter a lot to me and I don't know what I'd do without you, and please don't say I have Sebastian because yes I do but you are the only Hannah I have.
2. If you really want me to I can slap Tory, if it means you'll stay I'll shoot him.
3. You do have the right to call people a bitch if you want, but they also have the right to say they don't want you to.
4. Who do you want to punch just tell me and I'll help, because I want you to be happy no matter how much trouble I get in.
5. Please don't shove a tack in your arm, that would hurt you and I really don't want you to do that, i know that is a little hypocritical of me to say because I am the one seeing the Phyciatrist for such things but nit's different I don't want you to get hurt.

I'm taking serious thought into...

*Switching schools (or being home schooled)(and honestly other than you guys who would care?)

*Punching several people in the face (don't worry I don't wanna punch any of you)(yet)

*taking this pretty little tac here and shoving it into my arm

*Going up to tory (or sending one of you guys (most likely heather) and slap him straight across the face.)

*REading the bible and repenting some things (probably the only good this on this list)

*With drawing my self from people for a while (like I could that.)

*I'm also this close to shooting everyone that keeps on talking about how Effing wonderful their life is, When Mine is so f-ing miserable!

*And this is a little off subject but I do believe I can call who ever I want a bitch if I really want to, I don't need your guys' consent to do that.


If you don't like this post deal with it, I posted it. I itend for it to stay here. And Taylor I don't want you messing with my posts EVER again.


I swear to God I'll do these things if things don't brighten up for me soon.

Sorry

Okay I feel bad for Hannah people keep hounding her over calling Terra a bitch, although Han-han I have to say you really shouldn't express that out loud. Hannah I know you think so, but it bothers Taylor and Lekey, if you want to call her a bitch then call me and say it all you want, but I feel you should refrain from saying it around people who care about her, because if a friend of mine called you a bitch I would rip their throat out, so I think Taylor and Lekey are handling it well by asking nicely.

Taylor: Sadly I don't have music for it, maybe you could help me with that part.

Lekey: I realized today that you actually don't mind having the lunch we do. I wonder why? *winks*

Laura: Sory i didn't actually mean to put said persons name it was just in my head when I typed it so it came out, I'll be sure to specifically note not to next time.

Please, Sorry, Energy, I love you.

Heather, your song is beautiful. Does it have music? I like it. It honestly made me start tearing up. Of course that was helped along by Hannah's post.

Hannah, please don't call someone I love a bitch. I'm sure Lekey would agree with me. I can't really talk about it here, but please don't. PLEASE. I know I called someone else a bitch, but I knew none of you would really mind. Please don't get mad at me, but it really makes me uncomfortable when you call her that, or talk badly about her, because I wouldn't talk about your friends like that and I really wish you wouldn't. PLEASE don't take this the wrong way. I love you, I love her, I have problems when my friends don't like each other. Okay, I'm done with all my pleases. <3

I wish I could help all of us be happy. I know at least two of us are as happy as they can be, and some of us aren't. I really wish we all could be as happy as you guys. The rest of us need to be happy because they're happy. Remember that if it were the other way around, they would be happy for you. So be happy that they're happy, at least. Yes, I know I'm referring to Heather and Lekey as if I weren't happy. I'm not as happy as I could be, but it's getting there. Hannah, remember that not all relationships are beds of roses.

I hope my energy helped on Friday night. I tried my best to spread positive energy into you guys. I think it worked, unless it was just that romantic comedy vibe that cheered us all up. Maybe I'll explain more about the energy thing in person. It's kind of like Laura's aura thing. Teehee! Laura's auras! That should be a company. Like Taylor's Tailor, Hannah's Bananas, Heather's Feathers, Kaylyns, Mail-ins, and Lekey's.... um... Ecky-nomics? That's stretching it.... Hmmm....

I am leaving, I am leaving, but the fighter still remains!

And remember, if they hurt you, they hurt me too. 'Cause it's all about us.

-Make sure you belong to yourself, because if you don't belong to yourself, how can you belong to anyone else?

I really am Laura's apprentice!

Isn't life peachy?

So, let me if I've got a few things, So Tory and Terra are back together, Heahter wrote me a lovely sonng (thankies Heather), Taylor's the Fortune Cookie apprintice, Lekey's still very happy, And I'm Miserable and stuck in a trench. Right?

So anyway I can easily Say the year 2008 has been the WORST year of my life. Shyla died, Tory dated Meghan and now he's dating Terra (bitch) and he Tossed me into a little corner and started hating me for some reason.

I'm listening to music right now To be specific I'm listening to "love hurts" by Incubus To make that son even better it's on an Elfen Lied Video so I'm getting Gore and sadness all in the same video...

Well I guess I'm done here. Farewell all.

happy tears...

Heather, your song made me cry. Really. It is possible that you have a future as a songwriter, for serious. An EMO songwriter.

This blog's format confuses the hell out of me... I never can figure out how to get to drafts. The reason that's a problem is because I always wanna reply to all of your posts, but forget what they say by the time I get to the posting!!! But I've figured out a solution, so if you have that problem too, never fear!

Awright: Who thinks movie night was a success? (for us at least) *raises hand*

Hey Laura! Heather's on my side now too! PLEEEEEZE???? With a cherry on top? Okay, I know that you can't just start liking someone all of a sudden. But I swear it would be perrrfect.

Taylor is correct. No calling-of-the-bitch to someone who is at least some of us's friends. (Grammar alert! Feel free to go back and edit, grammar nazis.)

So Hannah is feeling vindictive and miserable as is (unfortunately) often the case. What can we do to help? Because aside from inflicting violence on other people, I'd do anything to stop you hurting. You know that, right? And we're gonna have to start thinking of cool messages to leave for the mysterious and elusive but friendly "Logan and Keyser" on Ms. McCay's lab tables. For your sake I hope they're hot single emo boys. :D

Tay: I like your quoting of the Simon and Garfunkel in yo' postin'. MAIDEN BRACELETS!!!! And, I recognize the 'belong to yourself' quote too. Sometimes it seems we can communicate telepathically. Which is just BEYOND cool.

Heather: Are you suuuure you don't want one? Just kidding. Oh, btw I just realized you have a jacket fetish... creepy. Guess what? I have a new appreciation for Orange Crush hoodies now!Hahaha just kiddin. You amazing emo songwriter, you.

Bye peeps. Peace love and hippie vibes til next time.

Yo' faithful correspondent,
Lekey

Hannah's Song

I wrote a song for Hannah. You sometimes say that you don't have a Theme song to go with the Tory situation, so I thought I would right you one. I appologize it took me so long, i started on it before your birthday so I could give it to you as a present, but it didn't get done until the other day. I hope you like it, and I'm fairly sure it will match perfectly seeing as it was written for you.

P.S- The stuff in the puple is the chorus.

Once upon a time There was a young girl blinded by a love so true she was head over heals For the one boy There was nothing anyone could do he acted her friend, gave her comfort and joy but then came the pain so horrible not even the strongest warrior could bear.

You shattered her world into a million pieces it didn’t appear that you cared, I watched you walk away I sat through her tears after all of that you just stared. Think of the heart you teared

One day the princess woke from her fairy tale. She never seemed to smile, everyone started to worry And then after a while She came around and realized That life isn't all that great And looked at you with longing eyes that didn't care about the hate

You shattered her world into a million pieces it didn’t appear that you cared I watched you walk away I sat through her tears After all of that you just started think of the heart you teared

And when she looked up at me her eyes still full of tears she looked back at what used to be and longed for the loving years. When you came around Her heart was unprepared to be loved like you made her feel to feel like someone cared but you turned your back on her she never would have thought you were lying When you said you where her friend and now her soul is dying

You shattered her world into a million pieces it didn’t appear that you cared I watched you walk away I sat through her tears after all of that you just started think of the heart you teared.

Now the wounds too deep you made her die on the inside with a promise you didn't keep You acted her friend Now her heart is totally shattered then you left her in the rain like nothing really mattered But she knew you better than that now I'm watching her walk away from youYou made her hurt so badly With all the things that you would do Now your eyes are leaking With tears of pain As you sit alone in the pouring rain You were teasing her When she caught on to your game Now you're the one Who's lost in the pain.

Be Careful People!

Okay people, you really need to watch what you put on this blog! You should NOT put names on here, as we never know who the heck reads this! And yes, Heather, I did change your post, but only to get rid of certain names that you had put on there... Your guys' plan is really not something that I want the world to know, okay?


Also, I am an admin, which means that I can change other's posts. But I promise that I won't change your posts except for those minor details that are revealing too much about someone's life. And I'll always tell you what I change when I do have to change them. I'm not sure who else on here are admins, but I hope that you'll follow these rules too...

So now that my little tirade is over... (But you guys had better hope that I fixed that before anyone read it, or there'll be hell to pay.) I really don't have much to talk about... I'm pretty sure that most everything that needs to be has been talked about... (Except for the topic about myself, which will be carefully avoided until I can figure it out.)

Okay, I'll put whatever things that I can think of on a list...



1.) I want details on Lekey's little event this Saturday. *wink, wink*

2.) I'm glad that Heather seems to be a little happier... I assume that she's figured a few things out. If not, then hopefully she's accepting things better. And if not again, then you need to talk to me!

3.) Tay-Tay is learning the fortune cookie life very well, and in turn, taught me how to knit! I still can't believe that they'll actually let us do that in class... Knitting needles can be lethal, you know...

4.) Hannah, I can never tell you enough that things will always work out in the end. Life has it's ups and downs, and you seems to be stuck in a trench at the moment. But I promise that one day, you'll find yourself on top of a mountain. (Yays! Another fortune cookie moment!)

5.) Kaylyn really needs to get on this blog. And we HAVE invited her. Multiple times... She just hasn't responded yet...

6.) We had an awesome movie night! Even if there were a few bad parts... But really, for us, it was pretty good.

7.) Test on Monday! And I still haven't studied, nor have I finished my study guide... Not that that has been a problem in the past, but it still worries me...

8.) I'm sick. And I absolutely loathe cold weather. Cool weather is fine, but the cold is really starting to bug me...

9.) Yay odd numbers and imperfection! And you OCD friends of mine aren't allowed to change this post!



Okay, so that's about it... So here's the random pics!

I have different things to say to each of you!

Lekey: Thank you for the offer but I can have my own it will just be a little difficult. (yes you can joke about it)

Laura: I really think you should go for our suggestion. I'm sure you think I'm crazy for think it but I really honestly think you should.

Taylor: I LOVE that song, but I like All the things she said, by t.A.T.u more. My mom bought me knitting needles, and Yarn!

Hannah: I'm sorry I got ticked at you last night at Laura's, I do wish you could be happy and hope more then anything that you know that.

Kaylynn: Oh wait Kay-kay isn't on here, maybe someone should send her an invite!

Well I have to go so I can un-dye my hair!

ZOMG We have over a hundred posts O.o

This makes 103!!!!!!! Wow. From me and Laura's lame little blog... to this. YAAAYYY!!!!
Sooooo....
I guess I don't really have much to talk about, seeing as I posted yesterday, but whatevz. I kind of realized how great this one song is. It's by t.A.T.u., which I don't think any of you except Hannah really listen to... It's called All About Us. Here are some choice lyrics.

If they hurt you
They hurt me too
So we'll rise up
Won't stop
And it's all about
It's all about

It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us (all about us)
There's a thing that they can't touch
'Cause ya know (ah ah)
It's all about us (all about us)

If you decide to listen to it on YouTube, search for the censored video unless you want to see some guy get shot in the head. It's a good song! :)

Ummm.... love and kisses all around. Heather, we already talked about the children thing, *wink wink*. :-*

OOOHHHH!!! I came up with fortune cookie quotes! I'm learning from Laura, you know. They're mostly for Hannah, since she's got it worst at the moment.

"If they don't love you, that doesn't mean that they hate you."
"Don't waste your time worrying about someone who doesn't like you, use it to find someone who loves you."
"If you have to wonder if they love you, find someone you don't have to wonder about."
I hope these are sufficient. What do you think: icon material? ;-)

Sooo.... we watch movies, we make movies, no? I get to be on costumes. The Warner Brothers have competition! FROM THE PHUNK SISTERS!!!!! LOL.

PS It would be fun to start using tags more often. And Hannah, if you're going to have a name like that, you could at least be grammatically correct for mine and Heather's sakes. :D

PPS Does anyone else think we maybe should change the name of our blog to something besides "Blog no Jutsu?"

I love you guys!

I seriously do love you guys, and hopefully this Tory thing will blow by soon. (may God smite him).

SO ON TO A DIFF TOPIC

So I guess we're watching 3 movies. Napoleon Dynamite (funny) Made of honor (aww, that movie is so cute!) and Superbad (haven't seen it).
Is that list right?

Now for indevidual notes!

Taylor: Don't worry I won't clam up on our glorious movie night. ILY!!!

Lekey: Um, Ily2. But, We all can't be as happy as you. (is referring to your name thing)

Laura: I'm looking up more fanfiction!! ;)

Heather: I was talking to Shyla's parents, and they found those letters (and your birthday present!) :) they said they should be here by next week.

Okay (song(s) of the moment)

Kerosene-- Miranda Lambert (My idol)

Cold as you-- Taylor Swift (has fit for almost 4 years)

Warwick Avenue-- Duffy (doesn't fit my situation but it's awesome)

World Peace.

Well guys, my post is gonna be quite behind the times. I THOUGHT I'd posted a while back, but it doesn't look like it. Also I just discovered my old post in the drafts, so this might be a little repetitive. Ahh it won't hurt you to hear it twice.



Laura, you're right. I didn't realize that we were totally jumpin all over you for your political views. Sorry-sorry. It's good to hear other peoples's opinions, if only to sharpen your own arguments. I'm glad that we can stay friends even with such radically different views. Know how Mr. Baldwin is always going on and on about how believing in tolerance isn't actually being tolerant? Well we are the example of how that should work. :D Yays!



Movie night is good idea. Lekey replies in the affirmative to her invite.



Hannah: we needa TALK, girlfran. Tory is NOT worth your time. As far as I can tell. But you mentioned how he was your best friend in earlier parts of middle school so it makes sense that you liked him. And why it would be soooo hard to stop. Sorry to you too.



Taylor: you are one insightful teenager. (if that's not an oxymoron idk what is) I totally agree with you about how we seem different at school than on the blog and just with each other... but I don't think that we're the only people. My guess is that when any group of friends gets together they show a different side of themselves, one that maybe isn't so readily accepted in the negative environment of school. That's why people become our friends, rather than just our school buds. Ilove you other Quaker Phunk sista!



Heatherrrr: what to tell you, my friend. what to tell you. We talk every day at lunch, but I get the feeling we haven't really communicated in weeks. PLEASE come to movie night, cuz I think this thing is way overdue. Love you as well. Tell you what, you can have one of my children! Do you feel better now? (Sorry if that's an inappropriate thing to joke about.)

well my Phunk sisters, talk to you tomorrow, really COMMUNICATE with you at PSMN (Phunk Sisters Movie Night). You all have my undying affection. Peace out.

Laments

I'm sorry. I'm not sorry. I feel insulted. I don't know what to do. I can't say everything through electrons.
Hannah, I love you. But sometimes, I don't know what to think. I don't know what to say. I don't know which side to take.
How do you tell someone you love that sometimes they're not right?
I guess we can talk about this at the movie night. Just promise me you won't to that thing where you clam up and don't talk to us. Be mature. Being immature has its advantages, but only in the humorous department. Not in the seriousness department.

Heather, tell your psychiatrist that Laura's parents will be there. That should work.

Yeah, I seriously can't wait. We really need this, you guys. Like, REALLY.

Laura, NO MORE KNITTING WITH PLASTIC NEEDLES. :D

I gots to jet. bbai!

Agree-age

I totally agree with Tay-tay and Laur-laur we do need to get together, I'm sorry I haven't talked to you all very much lately and I know that bothers a few of you *cough* Laura and Hannah *cough* I try to talk to you guys through the blog and hopefully you all can figure out my problems through that, if not all the more reason for us to get together on Friday.

WARNING: I may not be able to go seeing as my Psychiatrist, doesn't feel me being away from adults is the best idea.

A cool political idea!

I wish our insides were as happy as our outsides.
What I mean by that is, we all seem happy enough at school. We seem like normal people. But on the blog, we're dark and philosophical. We have problems on the blog. Which means that we have problems inside that we need to get out, and we have a way to get them out, which is nice. But we should really talk in words. So.... MOVIE NIGHT!!!!! Laura's idea, folks. I wanna watch Napoleon Dynamite. :D

Sorry, Laura. I guess politics is like religion in the way that you don't want someone bashing your beliefs. But in religion, it doesn't matter, and people's beliefs can coexist. In politics, not so much. Here's what I think.
Each party should elect a president, and they should be co-presidents.
There would be problems, such as the fact that they wouldn't agree with each other, but they could learn, and people's political ideas could coexist. I think if McCain and Obama were co-presidents, then there would be the experience people want from McCain and the change people want from Obama. I think this election is mainly divided between people who want change and people who are afraid of change. I won't say anything about that because I'm trying to be Swiss in this. (Heheh, rhyme.)

I also just thought of the fact that people would be like, "Well that's not Democracy!" We don't have democracy. In a real Democracy, there would be no parties. People would actually decide on cantidates by their merits and not their parties. I mean, voting for the best person to run our country only happpens with undecided voters. Faithful Republicans or Democrats would never vote for a cantidate of the other party even if they were the better choice. So if you had to vote for one of each party, you would decide on their merits. So either we get rid of parties or vote within parties. Our method of democracy doesn't work.

OK rant over. I gots to go. See y'alls later.

I wish I knew what to do about so many things

*Read the title* I want to help all of my sisters with problems, but I can't. I want to make everyone I care abouts pain go away, but I can't. I wish I could grow up, but I can't, I wish I could be healthy, but I can't, I wish I could be completely happy, but I can't, I wish I could have kids, but I won't be able to, and I wish I wasn't so deeply in love, but I am.

I'm tired of being optimistic so I'm going to stop. Hannah, I think you should give up on Tory. I love you to death and I can't stand to see him make you upset anymore, I've tried to be a good friend by not telling you to get over him and tell you that you guys will be together eventually, but now I'm going to try and be a better friend by telling you the truth. Hannah, he isn't worth it, he makes you cry, insults you, and when he isn't taking advantage of you he is ignoring you. face it Hannah he's a jerk and doesn't deserve you even at your worst.

Opinions...

Okay, so there's two things that I want to touch on here. One is Hannah's issue, and the other is political views. (Which aren't all about McCain and Obama, they're some issues that have been coming up lately with them.) Before I say anything though, I'm warning you that I WILL get off track every so often in this blog because I've been working on some introspection lately, and I'm determined to figure out why I do the things I do, which is NOT easy at all...

So yeah. First off, I didn't vote in Hannah's poll because, as usual, my opinion can't be summed up by one of two words, 'cause I have way more behind it than just a simple yes or no. For some reason, they're all maybes... I don't get it myself, but there's never just one answer in my brain for anything... So yeah, back on subject.

Hannah, I think that you made the right decision to break off your ties with him. He's not ready for the serious relationship that you seem to want from him, and if it's not serious, then you'll probably break up with him within a few weeks or months.

But the thing is, can you really just force yourself to stop liking someone? I know that I've been able to do it, but I also know that it's not easy. The reason I came up with the Full MTHL operation was to help you realize that you didn't need him, and I hoped that if you had him, you could finally realize that it wasn't as great as you thought it would be. I saw it as a way for you to finally allow your heart to move on.

Fortune cookie quote of the day: "Sometimes, you work so hard for something you desire, only to discover that what you were looking for is somewhere else." (I came up with this one on my own!)

So, if you really think that you can get over Tory on your own here, then, by all means, go for it. But if you find that you can't let go of him, then maybe what you really need is to try out the relationship and find out if it's really what you need, okay?

Well, now that my fortune cookie moment is over, I want to discuss this whole political thing. I hope you all know how absolutely frustrating it is to have all your friends (Except for the awesome Switzerland people!) against you in such an important matter.(Not that we really have much of a say in it, but still!)

But really! All you guys do around me is go all anti-McCain/Palin. "McCain's awful 'cause of this." "Palin's so freakin' horrible." That's all I hear! I TRY to respect your opinions by not bashing Obama in front of you, and try to focus on why I think my pick is good, but you all just go on and on about why they're awful! Is that supposed to change my opinion on them? All it does is put me on the defensive. It's an automatic turn-off.

Please, if you're going to try and debate with me, tell me why Obama's so great, okay? I'm really tired of getting shouted down by ALL of you whenever I try and voice my opinions. (Again, except for the awesome Team Switzerland. You guys are quickly becoming my favorite party at this rate...) All I want is a little respect for my opinions, that way I can respect yours.

*Sighs* Glad that's out of the way... I've really needed to address that for awhile now... So lets go back to normal teenage things, as in, we all need to get together! We haven't done that in too long... So, I propose a movie night this weekend! All in favor say "Aye!"

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Right... So, I guess we'll have to discuss it at school... Anybody have any good movies? I'd really like to see Jumper again... Or any random movie works, so long as it has action and a good romance plot woven in. Talk to me about it peeps! (Which is ghetto for people, just FYI.)

And... I'm done. Here's my random stuffs!

I like these... Anyways, talk to you guys later!

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same..

Okay guys there's been some things bothering me lately... The main thing is that about 2 weeks ago, Terry told me that Tory said there were reasons he wouldn't date me... I would very well like to know what they are, So I could change them, but then again I also start to think of something Shyla told me on her last visit... she told me that if Tory didn't accept me at my worst he sure as hell didn't deserve me at my best. So I don't know what to do now, Should I just keep faith and go on with the operation, or just give up on him once and for all. So after those thoughts ran through my head I decided to make TWO lists the first list are lists of thing BAD things tory has done to me the second list are GOOD things he'd done to me...

BAD LIST:

~ He's dated two while he knew I liked him
~ He's Insulted so many times
~ He ignored me most of last year
~ He takes advantage of the fact that I like him (not nice)
~He broke my heart


Good list:
~He fixed taco's eye
~He Made me stop doing bad things to myself
~ He used to be the only person I could turn to if there was something wrong
~He convinced me that No one hated me, some people just don't see eye to eye with me.
~He was one of the only people in 6th grade who acknowledged my exsistance in 6th
~He was my one true friend in part 6&7th grade


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Okay so there's more stuff on the good list but the bad things left a bigger impact.
So I think I've made my desicion on what I'm going to do. ~sigh~ guys I'm sorry you worked so hard on it but... ~rips up MTLH paper~ you can try to change my mind but I doubt you'll change it.

I'm letting go.

*Is sad and angry*

*sigh* Zack and Tory need to give it a rest, it really makes me upset when they say and do the things they do. I can't believe they can actually be that mean, and not one of them has said a word to me this year that wasn't something negative about me.

Tory really hit a sore subject with me today and strangely enough it mad me want to cry. We were walking in the school parking lot towards the school and we saw Sebastian's mom he sort of introduced me to her. kind of. Anyway, she said hello and so did I and that was pretty much it, of course once we are out of his mothers ear shot Tory says she doesn't like you I can already tell, and it hurt. I want her to like me, I don't know why but I do. I think I want her to think I'm good enough for him, and not think I'm going to break his heart which is what she thinks at the moment I'm sure.

I want to be good enough for him but I feel like I never will be, because all anyone ever does is point out how Sebastian has supposedly gone soft, and how he doesn't have to do anything for himself anymore because I can just do it for him. It makes me feel like I'm bad for him and don't give anything positive to him I just take away from who he used to be.

Wonderings...

Okay... I'm really starting to get sick of the whole guy thing... *sighs* Why is it that I have to have a boyfriend anyway? It's a lot of drama and can get annoyingly stressful, which won't help me much on top of everything else that's going on lately. (If you need to know, then you already know. It's family stuff.)

So really. Why do I need one? Not that it wouldn't be nice... But I really am sick of all of it... *sighs again* I guess we'll just have to see how things go... I'm really leaning toward Lekey's idea, with a guy from Gatton, where he'd have to share my interests. (Robots!) Well, at least I have a good amount of patience, 'cause I'm gonna need it...

Anyway, I'm still undecided about homecoming... Should I go, or not? Well, I do want to go to SAYF, but I think some of you might kill me if I do, and I have to play for band... So whatever... I'll figure it out.

So, I once again must end my post early, as I'll get grounded if I'm not off of this thing soon. Well, at least then I wouldn't have to worry about deciding where I'm going this Friday...

See you guys!

kudos to Heh-Heh

I agree! We gon' post or ain't we? (Take THAT, grammar nazis!)

Guess what? It's been 2 weeks and a day. And I'm still all estatically happy. This ROCKS. Is it always this much fun? :DDD Which leads me into my next topic...

LAURAAAA!!!! Why you so difficult my dear? Maybe you do need to go to Gatten, if only to find your perfect (hot) nerd counterpart and then bring him back to Berea with you. Because that would be the only acceptable reason for you to go. We'd miss you toooo much.

I guess that I don't really have anything else to say... love you guyses fo'eva.

WTF!

Dude are we going to post on this thing or not?

Yet Another Post!

Well, I'm more than slightly relieved now. It's somehow worse wondering what's wrong than knowing what's wrong, even if it's not that great. So much loves all around.

Lekey, I'm sorry both you and your boyfriend had to wear the same slut shorts... But that sounds like you both wore the same pair. Teehee! That's not what I meant.

LAURA! We need to work on our f'ing rocket project! It be due on Monday! GAAHHH!

Um, not much else to say. Ba-Bye!

Eyebrows creased with worry...

Here are some problems...

1. I don't know what the f is up with Heather and no one will f-ing tell me.
2. I hurt my hip yesterday at my meet and now I can't walk. Literally.
3. See number one.
4. I had to wear aforementioned slut-shorts in front of my boyfriend. (see Taylor's last September posting.)
5. See number one.
6. Hannah has low self esteem and it is sad, because she has no reason to.
7. What's left of fall break is gonna suck, because now I CAN'T FRIGGIN WALK!
8. My boyfriend wore the same kind of shorts as I did... so he's a slut too. AAAGH!

Good news is I've been listening to Amaranth the whole time I've been typing this. It roxxes. And that I can use the word boyfriend without it being a lament about not having one. And that the one I have is amazing... :)

Worries

Sorry for posting twice in almost a row, but it's October now, so I figure I'd better. *logic askew*
Whatever has happened, Heather, remember we won't pressure you to tell us because we know you will anyways. And whatever it is, we love you. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3

I am personally very bored. I made a pineapple upside-down cake. It's tasty. Of course. *arrogance*

I think I'm going to make pancakes here in a minute. P:



so if you wanna burn yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna cut yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna kill yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
call me up before your dead, we can make some plans instead
send me an IM, i'll be your friend



Well, I'm worried and I want to know if my worries are reasonable.

Here's another wordle. (I had fun with the html!)