It's a kind of sweet sadness

Oh, you guys. The summer's almost over. I hate when summer's over. Last week I was kind of looking forward to school, and seeing you guys every day, well, except Laura and Lekey :'(

But now I'm realizing how much I'll miss doing nothing all day, and sleeping forever, and staying up late drawing and reading, oh I'll miss all of it. The cicadas want me to stay free with them forever but I can't do it.

I want to lay under the stars and recognize the Dolphin and the Swan and Draco and the Eagle like we did in Quebec. I want to jump in Woodward Reservoir and explore little stores like I did in Vermont. I want to dance by the Pacific Ocean and watch rocks float like I did in Oregon. I want to hear people sleep-talk like I did in North Carolina. And I want to stay up late being crazy with my friends like I did in Kentucky.

But I think this year will be a good year. I have a feeling about it. January 1 is not when my new year starts, no, it's August 11. And I want to be different. I don't want to retreat into my hair when things go wrong, I want to fix them. I don't want to move through school in my own entranced mind, I want to be present. And I don't want to let any of you get away from me like you did last year.

I am wildly tired right now, so I'll conclude.

Be with me, be in the moment, be human, be kind.

I love you.

sing it loud so I can hear you

IT'S KIND OF HOT AROUND HERE

Blehhh. I am glad to be home again, but I am NOT glad to leave behind the coolness of the North.

Anyhow.

I just spent the whole day with Terra. We like talked, and made macaroni and fruit salad, and then we talked, and then we colored in coloring books. There was this Roman coloring book, and we colored the Roman lady like a scene kid, and the guy all emo. It was friggin awesome. Also we played in the creek. All these little fishies came up and bit our legs! :D

Aaaand that's all I've done since I've been home, other than exchange a few outpourings of emotion with a certain person via Facebook.

I'm not terribly excited for school to start, but I really feel that this year will be better than the last. For me at least. I've no more required electives, so I actually get to do what I want! (Like Art, and Foods, and Drama. Wheeeee!)

Yeah that's about it. I'm really looking forward to Thursday.

YEP

PS Yes Hannah, I've missed McLennon and IKYBH as well. I suppose I really should reread it. And "the one where he's anorexic." Whatever its real title is.

PPS Also I changed the layout. It's pretty basic but I thought it was nice and summery!

PPPS I've been reading the archives. Let me say, the most creative spelling of a swear word goes to Lekey, with "PHUQQ."

She's waiting like an iceberg, waiting to change

Well, well. Nothing much has changed in my little hiatus. That's okay I suppose.
I'm home from Oregon. Yaaay. Really I'd much rather be up there still because it's about 1,000,000 times less humid. Because of the ocean, you know.

So here are my plans:

July 15- Leave for Vermont

The end. Seriously, I have nothing else to do between now and then. Except putting things back in my room at night when it's not quite as sauna-like. Right now I'm thanking heaven for oscillating fans. And Dave Barry. You guys should seriously read some of his books. He's HILARIOUS.

In other news, I recieved 48 Prismacolor pencils for my birthday. I'm very very excited. Also I got an eyelet setter for when I get around to making a real corset. :)

Everyone, please go into the drafts and delete ones THAT YOU WROTE that you no longer have need of. Thank you very much.