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I hate seeing him with her.
I hate seeing him so happy when I'm slowly falling apart.
And today I saw him kiss her.
And I swear that I died for a few seconds.
I literally felt my heart stop and I couldn't breathe.

Why do things always end up this way?
I can never get my way.
Every start to the school I'm happy.
Then something happens and it ends up really crappy.
It just never happens this early in the year.

Hopefully I'll be happy someday.
That sometime just isn't soon.
Because everyday I have to go throught the hell of seeing them together everyday.
I hate loving him so much.
Because he'll never feel the same.
And as the days go by. I'll still feel this way.
A girl that has fallen completely in love.
In love with a boy who just won't ever feel the same.

I'm just going to go on.
Like nothing is wrong.
Everytime I see him he'll send me a goofy look.
And I'll send him one right back.
And he'll hug me.
And my heart will break even more.
I'll text him and we'll talk about our days.
Everything will be normal.
He'll be happy.
....
But I won't be.
That's just how it goes.

I'm just really bummed right now guys.
I'm sorry for posting this shit.
I'm also that some of it rhymed.

-Hannah
xo