Response to Laura's letter!

LAURA!!!! We miss you! For academic team, our movie is going to be a Twilight movie spoof. Me or Sebastian will be Edward and Heather is Bella. You need to be here. You can be Esme!!!! Rane is definitely going to be Rosalie and/or James. HAHAHA! Taylor can be a red-headed Alice. Ian would make a great brunette Jasper. Edgar can be Emmett since he's so dreamy and muscular!!! Hehe. I want to be a vampire at least.

Yays!

I'm currently blogging while sitting on the porch of our hotel, staring out at the beach and comfortably wearing a tank top. I love this place! The only way it could be better would be if you guys could come and replace my family... And one of us could legally drive... Believe it or not, but I've already managed to get sunburnt, but you know, it wouldn't be the beach if I didn't get burnt at some point... But I miss you guys! *Hugs through internet* Hmm... If I can hug you through the web, maybe I can pull you through so you can be here! *Grabs people through their computer and tries to drag them through* Dang it! It won't work!

Anyway, How are things back home? I'm so proud of Hannah for handling that so well, by the way. Perfect techniquie. Apologize, explain, then put up something funny to lighten the mood. I applaud you! And forgive you, if you didn't catch that in my applause. Plus, I will take extra care to limit my Twilight chatter around you, so as to relieve your stress at hearing about it so much.

As of now, such petty fights are behind me! This vacation is just what I need to rejuvinate and get away from whatever drama we have going on. When I get back, I shall be refreshed and ready to be your optimistic fortune cookie once more!

If you couldn't tell, I'm in a better mood than I've been in for weeks. As I said, a relaxing vacation was just what I needed. Hopefully, the fact that all of the near relatives on my mom's side of the family are nearby won't make more tension for all of us... (My grandparents = My mom x 10.) Yeah. All I need to say. My aunt Kit is here though, so that should ease things out... But we'll see...

So yeah, I send warmth through to all of you! Talk to me about what's going on back home! I feel disconnected being so far away... Thank god for internet and cell phones! But I gotta end this now... My dad's gonna disconnect the internet here in a minute....

Miss you guys!!!
~Laura

:)))

So you see my point, even if you don't realize it. We're different from most of the groups who populate our stupid school, because how many could begin resolving something like this on a frickin blog, without any more tears or screaming besides the initial ones?

Hannah: You amaze me. That would be REAAALLLY hard to say, and you pulled it off with grace. Dayumm. Better than I could have done. Impressive.

Not trying to sound like I'm giving you guys my 'lordly approval' or something... I just wish to express my admiration for all of you.

And now I hafta go. We'll cya on Monday, except Laur-Laur who is partyin it up in warm, sunny Florida... *is jealous* Come back sun-tanned and relaxed, friend. :D

Lekey

Holy Shiz.

I haven't posted on a while..

Anyway I'd like to clear things with you all.

First off I'd like to apologize to those of you whom I may have pissed off on Friday, I had no right to bash Twilight. You all respect my interests the least I can do is not bash Twilight.

Secondly, after reading some of you guys' posts I'd like to say a few things about that one day at lunch (you know the one.) What made me mad about what Kaylyn said wasn't the fact that Jerry is gay, it was that Shyla was gay (well she was bi.. basically the same thing.)

Now that's cleared.

Thirdly, Uh, I SAW YOU AT WAL-MART TAYLOR!!!!



Uh stuff to waste space!!
(I thought these were the shiz, you don't have to read them)


The Ten Commandments of Gerard Way

1.Thou shall never let them take you alive.
2.Thou shall drink Starbucks coffee
3.Thou shall play World of Warcraft as an Undead Warrior
4.Thou shall admit that they are not okay freely
5.Thou shall unleash the fucking bats
6.Thou shall strike violent poses
7.Thou shall stay out of the light
8.Thou shall suck thy enemies blood
9.Thou shall overcome thy weaknesses
10.Thou shall not be afraid to keep on living

The Ten Commandments of Frank Iero

1. Thou shall run around until thou can no longer breathe
2. Thou shall eat skittles
3. Thou shall let the singer feel thou up
4. Thou shall wear a badge on thy shirt collar or hood
5. Thou shall get tattoos
6. Thou shall kick random objects if they are in thy way
7. Thou shall grin with all teeth
8. Thou shall change hair style every year
9. Thou shall wear sunglasses in situations of conflict
10. Thou shall burn everything and call it Cajun


The Ten Commandments of Mikey Way

1. Thou shall move as little as possible on stage
2. Thou shall choose coffee as thy poison
3. Thou shall straighten hair with dignity
4. Thou shall love sushi as much as thineself
5. Thou shall be the spiritual advisor to thy peers
6. Thou shall wear glasses as close to falling off as possible
7. Thou shall have epic battles with brick walls
8. Thou shall hate small spaces, large spaces and grocery shopping
9. Thou shall love unicorns with all thy heart
10. Thou shall be dangerous around toasters/heaters

The Ten Commandments of Bob Bryar

1. Thou shall never get mad at those more annoying than thou
2. Thou shall look cool with sunglasses
3. Thou shall declare that Gerard makes thou heart burn openly
4. Thou shall love cats
5. Thou shall walk in the other direction/lash out if a camera is shown
6. Thou shall T.P New York
7. Thou shall drum until thou can drum no more
8. Thou shall give out Mikey Way’s phone number
9. Thou shall be the hardest working drummer ever
10. Thou shall love Mr. Bean as thou equal

The Ten Commandments of Ray Toro

1. Thou shall head bang till thou can head bang no more
2. Thou shall stick thou hands in cupcakes
3. Thou shall hide thy contacts well (I never even knew he wore them)
4. Thou shall not like to read
5. Thou shall not bother to cook
6. Thou shall play until thou gets ‘Guitar Burn’
7. Thou shall hate thou hair when straightened
8. Thou shall sing back up as if it were the most important part
9. Thou shall ask Gerard to not do ‘that’ in thy direction
10. Thou shall be proud of thou afro

The Ten Commandments of the Black Parade

1.Thou shalt except death as it comes
2.Thou shalt sing and march without question
3.Thou shalt face fear and regret
4.thou shalt let go of thy dreams
5.Thou shalt give blood
6.Thou shalt fear thy sins
7.Thou shalt protect thy brothers in arms
8.Thou shalt darken thy clothes
9.Thou shalt not walk this world alone
10.THOU SHALT CARRY ON!!!

The Ten Commandments of a Chemical Romance

1.Thou shall not put a gun to thy lover's head.
2.Thou shall be willing to die for love.
3.Thou shall seek revenge on those who wrong you.
4.Thou shall be a demolition lover.
5.Thou shall unleash the bats.
6.Thou shall protect thy lover from everything.
7.Thou shall respect the lords , Gerard , Frank , Mikey , Bob , Ray
8.Thou shall sing the holy hymns of the chemical romance.
9.Thou shall see beauty in bloody love.
10.Thou shall rock hard.

Uh, that's all. I think...

WAIT!

I'm about to go post a entry in my gaia journal it's a Interview with MCR It's fucking hilarious.

Okay...

Okay, so I AM annoyed. And I'm not going to take back anything I said in my last post, cause it's the truth. But, I am definatly willing to talk these things out and forgive and forget. I just am SO sick of all this fighting and tension and everyone reacting to everything so badlly...

I'm about to head out to Florida, so I have to make this quick... But, somehow, I agree with both Taytay and Lekey. For one, I'm tired of not being respected when I try hard to respect everyone else. But, you know, I'm really getting tired of being angry and annoyed. Have you noticed all of my excessive book reading lately? Well, that's what I do when I'm trying to escape my life for awhile. And boy, have I needed to escape lately. It's the only way I've found to let go of whatever anger I'm holding inside behind locked doors.

But I really think that this whole talking thing would be a great way to get rid of anger too. I think that most of us have plenty that we need to get off our chests, and the best way is to talk it out. So here's what I first heard when I got online:

All is Forgiven - Default

As if the wait was not enough
and one can only take so much.
You broke in to pieces.
Seems hopeless now but at least you know
the tables can turn around
and time will repair you.

And the rain comes and goes
and all is forgiven.
Can we learn to let go
so all is forgiven?

You're on your knees reaching
out reaching for someone
to lift you up right off the ground.
Is anyone out there?
You cant breath your choking.
You'll make it through just keep holding on.
I know that it won't be long 'til somebody saves you.

And the rain comes and goes
And all is forgiven.
Can we learn to let go
so all is forgiven?

When the clouds burn away
all is forgiven.
Will the night turn to day
So all is forgiven?

Don't stop the rain from pouring down.
Let it wash the pain where it can't be found.

And the rain comes and goes
and all is forgiven.
Can we learn to let go
so all is forgiven?
When the clouds burn away
all is forgiven.
Will the night turn to day
so all is forgiven?

oh... all is forgiven
oh... all is forgiven

So, I've gotta go, but I'll be in touch. Bye!

Wow. You know, when I logged on, I thought I'd be posting just a lil random check-in kinda thing...

I was off. By a lot. See, this whole debacle is a result of the issues repeatedly mentioned. And I think its good. It's time. I don't think anyone is to blame, and we all have our problems.

But the first thing I heard when I got on:

I have seen the others
and I have discovered
that this fight is not worth fighting
I have seen their mothers
and I will no other
to follow me where I'm going

Go now, you are forgiven

Talk about synchronicity. Which I am wayyy into right now. Thanks Dispatch.

So... I don't know, it seems like even though we're in this HUGE mess, we can get through it. "This fight is not worth fighting". Or maybe it just shouldn't be a fight. We do have problems, but we are different from other groups in that we realize it and feel like we should, even want to, address them.

The get-together idea that keeps being thrown around might be able to happen at my place. I don't know how eager my 'rents would be to host what will no doubt end up a drama-rama.

So. It seems like this is for the best. That we can be honest, even though it does piss off people who we love and care about. Let's keep this up, because you guys are my favorite people on earth and I don't want to lose you to our main issue of never adressing problems.

So much more to say, and I can't type another word. Love you all. We can work it out, we can work it o-uuuut.

Lekey

Apologies..

~If I made anybody mad with that last post, I'm sorry. I just....ugh! I really am not trying to be mean, but I'm just saying that all of the Twilight bashing annoyed me and angered me, even though I knew the bashing was completely stupid and childish and it was just, "Ok? I'm not going to take that personally and believe you on those comments because I know for sure that Twilight is awesome because I have read all of the books and have seen the movie."
~I sort of did, but you know, it wasn't nice to just do these things every second of the day all week.
~It's a big turn-off and I don't like it.
~We need to get together. I agree. My house is too open. I can hear my parents in the family room, when I'm up in my bedroom. Not good.
Ta ta for now my Phunk sisters!

Eeek!

I agree with Taylor.
People shouldn't be retarded and constantly bash something of others' interests every single second!
It's just retarded.
Those who disrespect me, get it straight back in their face. Maybe even worse!
It was not Eragon at all. It was mainly the awesome workings of Catherine Hardwicke and Stephenie Meyere combined (which literally it was!)
Those who haven't even read the books or have seen the movie DEFINITELY DO NOT have the right to critcise it just because they hate that series.
I have no problem if people have different views/interests, but when you actually say something about it, it says that the person doing the bashing/criticising doesn't care how others feel about it and they use it as a mechanism to make themselves feel better. To have a freakin' laugh.
I personally DESPISE it!
I just can't stand biased people or prejudice people. It's my #1 pet peeve. Treating others like crap because they are different from you, which is exactly how I feel right now!
I'm not trying to be mean.
I'm expressing how I feel about being made fun of, and HAVING MY PROPERTY TORN!!!!! THAT WAS RETARDED! At least I was generous enough to not make them buy me a new copy.

Post!

Okay, so first of all, Twilight. Was. AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!! *Squees*

And that's all I'm going to post about that subject for now... But trust me, you'll hear my opinion on the movie eventually. Just not right now, as we do have issues to discuss...

For one thing, thank you Taytay, for venting your anger. You've satiated mine, (for now) which saves me the effort of typing it all up, then having people get mad at me. Which I think that they probably are anyway, so I guess it wouldn't really matter... But still...

Just be glad it wasn't me who lost their temper. It would have been about 10x harsher and would probably include a bit of cussing. I have a much (MUCH!) longer fuse than most people, but that just makes things so much worse when they finally come out. Cause I spend so much time repressing my anger about things that when it does come out, there's a lot packed in there to get out... And boy did I come close today...

But anyway, I agree whole-heartedly with Taytay, so I'll spare you another lecture from me. All I want to say is that if you can't even respect and help your friends, how can you expect anyone to help and respect you? That's my fortune cookie thing for today.

The only thing with the whole issues thing is that every group of friends has them. It's not just us. It doesn't stop that from being a big problem, but it least it's comforting that there's at least one person out there that's going through the same problems as you are.

And yeah, our group has quite a few problems. And I think that our main one is our strategy for dealing with them. The whole "Ignore it and it'll go away" thing just puts things away for a little while, but it always comes back in some shape or form. It's really not solving anything.

We keep having certain temper problems, insane mood swing issues, boy troubles, bad grades, and definitely trust issues. And I think that most of it comes from our inability to address it. We really need to get together with our entire group and just talk everything out.

Don't get me wrong, the ignore tactic is definitely necessary and effective in some cases. It can work for personal or temporary things, like reigning in your temper *raises hand guiltily* or dealing with things you don't like.

But for our big issues, we really just need to get together. So someone, please step up and do this. I can't host it, for obvious reasons (Not to mention nosy parents!). So someone who can host a get together, please do! I can help plan, we just need a place to have it in!

So anyway, I'm gonna go for now. But before I do, here's what your fortune cookie has to say:

1.) Think before you act. Apologize for what happens when you don't.
2.) Keep your true friends close.
3.) Don't bother with your enemies, they're not worth it.
4.) Remember that we're only teenagers. We've barely begun to live our lives.
5.) Things tend to seem more important than they really are.
6.) The possibilities for the future are endless. Don't act like they're set in stone.
7.) Nothing lasts forever, so enjoy it while it lasts.
8.) The Golden Rule: Treat others as you would like to be treated.
9.) There is no such thing as perfect, so embrace that which is not!

So, that's that. I'll see you guys in a week! I'll still post on the blog from Florida though, and text and call and stuffs... So It'll be just like I'm there! Especially if you text during class or lunch. I'm available if needed, so I'll say adieu! Bye!

ISSUES!!!

So, Twilight was excellent. More on that later... dundunduhhhh

It's 10:59, and I feel so alive. I don't know why. 

Laura, are you going to publish that really long draft?

We have issues, guys. ISSUES!!!! IIISSSSSSUUUEEESSS!!!!!!!!!

I seriously don't want to offend ANYONE in this post. But If I must, I must, because when a person feels offended they tend to offend right back. And I'm OFFENDED.

The first part is about the incident that happened last Monday.

No.

That's all.

Everything went wrong, and I'm not blaming it on just one person.

It was going to be a joke. It was great fun. It never even crossed my mind that Hannah might take the "someone put garbage on my tray" point of view. But she did. From there it got worse, because we all know that Hannah has the boiling pot kind of temper. It flared up right away, getting food on Kaylyn in the process. Badbadbad. And it was just our luck that Kaylyn was the one who got splattered, because she's the one who Hannah's had problems with before. If it had been me, maybe something else would have happened. As it happened, I only got two little splats that I could easily take care of. But Kaylyn got splattered, and she has a candle in the wind kind of temper. It flares up for no reason at the most random times. It flared. Arguments were passed. Tempers got hotter. Hannah insulted Kaylyn by way of Jerry, who is gay. Kaylyn used this to her advantage by dissing gay people. Hannah left, and at this point another person got involved with the gay dissing. I was SO FED UP that I finally exploded. In the form of screaming at the other person to SHUT UP. After which I promptly burst into tears. 

You don't know how it feels. I don't like being nasty to people, but I do stand up for what I believe in. I keep my thoughts bottled up so tightly that only one usually ends up exploding out eventually. People would hate me if I spoke my mind half as much as I want to. So I was in conflict between "They're dissing gay people" and "I just screamed at them" and the two combined made me break down and cry. I swear, that wasn't me who screamed. It didn't feel like me. I am very sorry, but they should be too.

So Hannah boiled, and we used our little tactic, the "maybe if we pretend nothing happened it will go away" tactic. It didn't work immediately, but eventually, I guess it did. 

The other ISSUE I was going to talk about was the Twilight issue.

Don't diss people's interests. I don't diss your books, so DON'T DISS MINE.

I seriously try not to make fun of anyone's interests or put them down in any way. 

I would like it if people would at least give me and others the same respect.

Yes, everyone is entitled to their own opinion, but if you know that opinion is going to make someone mad, you don't have to say it. 

Maybe once, "Oh, I don't like that book/movie."

Not EVERY SINGLE DAY WHENEVER SOMEONE MAKES EVEN AN OBSCURE REFERENCE TO IT!!!!!!!!

I'm talking about, "Oh, I hope it sucks like Eragon did," and "Oh, I had to suffer through people talking about how great it is. This day is gonna suck."

GET OVER IT!!!!!!

EVERY TIME I hear ANYTHING about how it sucks, all my feelings tell me, "If she says anything one more time, I'm going to SCREAM AT HER!!!" You're lucky I did my screaming online. It would have been WAY WORSE in real sound waves. 

Well, amazingly, I can't think of any more ISSUES to write about. Surprising, eh, considering we have SO FREAKING MANY?!?!?

I don't like to be mean. But right now, I don't care how hateful people get. I just don't care. 

Sorry to be so scathing, 

Taylor

(P.S. Just so you know? It didn't suck as bad as Eragon. In fact, it didn't suck at all. Ha.)