When is it gonna be MY turn?

It's official. Every girl friend I have has had a boyfriend. (Yes, even Kaylyn. She just says it shouldn't count.)
And I'm very happy that all my friends are happy, believe me.
But I think I deserve someone. I've waited long enough. 16 years. You guys had Bf's at like 14. I'm sixteen and a god damned junior in high school. And I'm tired of being alone. Fuck. Why don't any of the guys I like, like me back!? IT'S NOT FAIR. NOT FAIR. NOT FAIR. NOT FAIR.
I'm tired of being alone. I want someone to hold. I want someone to love. I want someone who I know is going to be there when I need someone to text at 2 in the morning. I want Someone.
And almost anyone who's willing to be with me at this point I would take them. But it's apparently not that simple. Though it seems to be that way for a lot of people. Why can't I be one of those girls that every guy wants? Instead I'm the girl that tends to repel guys. They just see her as a dork that isn't worth the time. Or a fucking toy for their own god damn amusment.

And then the one guy. The one guy, who saw past my dorkiness, and my immaturity and saw a girl worth something, someone beautiful, even though I couldn't see the girl he was talking about. And we were almost something, but then we just pissed eachother off, and he moved on. Moved on without me. So here I stand.

I just want someone.
Anyone.
Someone that will sweep me off my feet.
Someone that will hold me.
And tell me I'm beautiful.
Even though I don't believe I am.
That's all anyone wants.
And you all have had it.
I haven't.
And it all I wish for.
Pray for, even.

You guys are probabaly rolling your eyes and thinking "Oh she's in one of these moods again."
But, oh well.
I've cried for the past hour because of this shit.
You know how pathetic that is?
It's awful.
I'm done now.
Goodnight.
Maybe I won't wake up in the morning.
Maybe I'll stay asleep forever.
Eternal sleep.
That sounds great right about now.

-Hannah.