She gets so sick of crying.

Alright, so I'm making a movie..

It's called:

"HOW TO BE A TOTAL BITCH"
Starring yours truly.

I mean, seriously you guys!
How have you not fucking destroyed me yet??
I was reading some posts from way back when.
And you guys have said some pretty nasty stuff about me.
And what I have to say about this is:
If you guys treated me like I treated you, I would have killed every last one of you!
God. I guess you guys are some damn good friends because you have put up with me for so long. And Thank you so much for that, by the way.

Oh, some other things:

There were several posts about how after Lekey got her first BF about how I was supposed to be the next one... And I'm slightly confuzzled. Have I had a BF yet? The answer is no. This was like, almost two years ago, keep in mind. So now I'm all depressed.
Damn.

Oh, and Heather! I found one of your lovely posts. Remember that song you wrote for me? Here's a refresher if you don't.


Once upon a time There was a young girl blinded by a love so true she was head over heals For the one boy There was nothing anyone could do he acted her friend, gave her comfort and joy but then came the pain so horrible not even the strongest warrior could bear.

You shattered her world into a million pieces it didn’t appear that you cared, I watched you walk away I sat through her tears after all of that you just stared. Think of the heart you teared

One day the princess woke from her fairy tale. She never seemed to smile, everyone started to worry And then after a while She came around and realized That life isn't all that great And looked at you with longing eyes that didn't care about the hate

You shattered her world into a million pieces it didn’t appear that you cared I watched you walk away I sat through her tears After all of that you just started think of the heart you teared

And when she looked up at me her eyes still full of tears she looked back at what used to be and longed for the loving years. When you came around Her heart was unprepared to be loved like you made her feel to feel like someone cared but you turned your back on her she never would have thought you were lying When you said you where her friend and now her soul is dying

You shattered her world into a million pieces it didn’t appear that you cared I watched you walk away I sat through her tears after all of that you just started think of the heart you teared.

Now the wounds too deep you made her die on the inside with a promise you didn't keep You acted her friend Now her heart is totally shattered then you left her in the rain like nothing really mattered But she knew you better than that now I'm watching her walk away from youYou made her hurt so badly With all the things that you would do Now your eyes are leaking With tears of pain As you sit alone in the pouring rain You were teasing her When she caught on to your game Now you're the one Who's lost in the pain.

I cried when I read it again. I realized that it kinda fit the Dylan Situation that I had. (A little over a year ago. God, it seems like it happened last month.)

And Finally...

I also read all the posts that you guys posted after I "Quit" I had never read them... And I cried so damn much.
I never knew you guys cared so much about me. Like, seriously, Thank you. So much.
And I know some of you probably don't care so much about me anymore, and I wish we never drifted so far apart.

...

And when I say some of you have drifted away, I really mean one. (You know who you are...)

And I'd also like to say to that person...

I'm sorry.
For everything.
For pushing you away.
For being so mean to you.
For offending you as much as I have. (I guess that one can go along with the whole "being mean" thing.)
I really wish we were as close as we once were.
Because I'll tell you right now, I probably miss the days when we were close twice as much as you do...
And I understand if you don't accept this apology.
I wouldn't if I were you either.
Just remember that I love you and I will always consider you my(Phunk)sister.

Anyway. That's all I have to say for now.
Ttyl

-Hannah.
XO