I'm sorry I can't go in depth now.

I'm fine, kind of.... I'll explain more later.

Random Rantages I s'pooooose.

Hannah, ma sista' (ghetto for sister) be optimistic like you were before. I like that better. Besides, (stealing Laur-Laur's role) whether you think you can or you think you can't, you're rignt. So think you can, k? We all do. About the feeling guilty for no reason: HIGH FIVE, MAN.

I need to hear from Heather. NOW. It's driving me insane.

And I need to send Kay-Kay an invite to the blog. *to do list*

LEKEY! Slut shorts! LOL!

So, we seem to have a little club, me, Lek-Lek and Heh-Heh. And KK, I suppose. Whatever.

AAND THOUGH YOU'RE DEAD AND GONE, BELIEVE ME, YOUR MEMORY WILL CARRY OOONNNN! (With funny New Jersy accent)

Um... words?



HAPPY BIRTH DAY HANNAH!

Here we go again...

Man, you were just so optimistic a little while ago Hannah! I mean, of course he's gonna be a little upset at first when he's just getting over a break up, but you gotta be patient. What he needs right now is a fun friend who's gonna cheer him up and make him forget about Terra for awhile. As for that, I know no one better for that job than you.

Be careful not to make him uncomfortable at first by coming on to him too obviously, and just cheer him up whenever you can. Then, once he's over his break up, who's gonna be the first person that comes to his mind? YOU. You would've helped him when he needed it most, and that always leaves a big impression on someone. And this is the second phase of the full MHTL plan.

And, sadly, I don't have time to put up icons, as my dad's trying to drag me out of the door at the moment... So see you guys later!

I DO NOT THINK HE'S GOD!!!

There is not a problem with loving your Shift key. And I can can capitalize anything I want, most of the time when I capitalize it just has something to do with Tory...
I'm sorry, I can't control how I feel.

muuuusings...

Here is what I've been thinking about lately... Isn't it strange...

• How polar opposites of emotion can exist in such close quarters?
• How comfortable some people seem with themselves?
• How humans have the capacity to feel this much emotion without exploding?
• That people can care soooo much?
• How blessed I feel that I can.

My dearest, most beloved friends, I can't express how glad I am to know you. Please don't hesitate to call me or message me or randomly show up at my house if the need should arise. it is my goal to always be there for you guys.

Moving on to lighter topics: Hannah, you always capitalize 'him' when you are using that pronoun to refer to Tory. I know you like him a lot, but hes not God... chiillll! Oh, and whaddya want for your birthday??? Please hasten to reply. Thanks.

Well, I seem to have run out of words earlier than expected. Loooove you guys. :)

Good mood gone.

So I was Myspace a little earlier and Tory was on. (no He didn't message me nor did I message him.) His mood was simply "WHY" and he posted a bullitin called "Three F's" and the three F's were "F'd, fooled, and failed" The after that he said "The story of my life." Which simply means He's really upset. which makes me upset. He really liked Terra and now that their not together He's a train wreck, only ten times worse. Terra Made him happy, and without her he's unhappy, the only reason I was really happy was that he seemed okay with them breaking up, and he's not... Gosh, I wish there was something I could do. but there isn't, and I know even if we eventually got together, I couldn't make him as happy as Terra did. ~sigh~ This Sucks. I feel guilty and I didn't even do anything...

Birthday Party, Monday, Meet at my Crib yo.

*Crib is Ghetto for house

So Yeah, you get the jif man, (no, not the peanut butter). Meet at my place at 5:00 p.m. SHARP!!! If you come any later than that you will not be allowed into the party. And Yes there will be cake/Ice cream/Guitar Hero/My dad Possibly being a show off and playing his guitar... Then Those of who are coming to my aunts old crib, for the sleepover will be leaaving my house around 6:30 to 7:00. Get it? Got it? good.

'Till then, Peace, love, and Happy pik-cha's lol. (pictures)

YESSSS.

Hate to say it Hannah, but I TOLD YOU SOOOOO! Let me tell you, I never thought I'd see such soppy icons on a posting of yours. *grins* Just give it some time so he can recover a bit from his last relationship. Or if you really want to speed things along, join cross country! Hahahaha.
Who else is glad its fall? Not necessarily fall break, just fall.

Everyone says that spring is the time for love, but in respect of the Phunk, I think fall is helping us out more than spring ever did.

*Heather: I love you. Sorry about your parents. Just know that we're ALWAYS here for you no matter how far away we are. Got me? You'd better.

*Taylor: piiiie. Me and you girl, we are gonna hang out this week. Especially since I'm missing Sayf for homecoming... heheh. OH! You should just come with me! There's a good idea.

*Laura: Still workin' on it. You really should consider my last suggestion... but if you won't, then we'll keep looking until we find the perfect 'one'. LOL. :)

YAY PHUNK LOVE LIVES!! YAY PHUNK! YAY FALL! You guys really are the best friends anyone could ask for.

Faith, love, and optimism

Oh my god... I am happier than I've ever been! (mainly because of Acedemic team practice) Heather, you were'nt there, but I hung with tory (and Isaac because he was just there) pretty much the majority of the time. It made me so Happy, and now I know that I know I can talk to him without being worried about anything, and it makes feel like maybe, just maybe this whole operation just may work! The Optimist inside me has finally taken over and has given me faith! And I'm going to stick with the whole operation until either He asks me out or until I get the courage to ask him out. Things are fianlly starting to turn around. and it feels SO good!!











Okay, so I'm getting a little ahead of myself, with all these pictures but I'm pretty sure you guys did these things too. (at least I hope so or else I'm gonna feel like a total idiot.)

What did I do?

Hannah, why won't you talk to me? I hate feeling helpless. I also HATE feeling guilty. HATE it. I still made you a pie for tomorrow. Please forgive me for whatever it is I have done. *begs*

Now, on to other cheerier topics.

Haha! Heather! We got to CORRECT YOUR GRAMMAR!!!!!! It is "Zack and me!" HAHAHAHAHA

Anyways.
This thing says scheduled outage at 4:00 PM Pacific time, which is 8 here, and it's 7:56, so... I better post quick. I'll talk to y'all later.

Project "EPIC FAILURE"

You guys I'm telling you it won't work! If we look back in the past that I like to call "MIDDLE SCHOOL" You'll clearly see the certain events that occured in middle school made it clear that he doesn't like me (the way I want him to like me) and never will, the most we can ever be is "just friends". Reasons for that is.

1) He's still dating Terra (God knows why)
2) i just can't talk to him it just feels weird.
3) And plus it's hard to even be "just friends" when you can't even talk to someone.
4) And is it like me to be nice? The correct answer is NO. Because I'm a selfish person Whom everyone can't stand, not even you guys, and don't lie and say you can stand me because you can't.
5) If I did talk to him I'd probably break down crying.

And it hurts me so much to that we can only ever be "Just Friends" because I waited for him for such a long time and I think I desrve him.

Parents Suck.

Why do Parents do that! I've never done anything to them yet they treat me like shit, and make me cry, I was being nice and helpful today they didn't have to go get into a fight with each other and leave the house and me alone with my little sister. I hate it when they fight, why don't they understand that they can't just go around screaming at each other when ever they want their have children in the house and one is only seven years old and shouldn't have to witness that at such a young age. I wish I was grown up so I could leave their house that way I wouldn't have to worry about all this fighting bull shit.

P.S Laura I like that one icon I'm sure you know which one I mean. *wink* *wink*

Go Now, You Are Forgiven

Alright, you know I posted on here not that long ago... about a certain person being a certain word that starts with B...
Well, she's not.
Most of you witnessed this revelation in the gym this morning.
It was very strange, and I really wished I was more awake at the time.
I was about to go up the bleachers and she said, "Taylor, I don't hate you." And then she went on about how Bethany had told her how bothered I was when I found out she'd said some things about me. All I could say was, "Thank you."
And then, because I had a really weird dream a while ago in which I hugged her, I asked for a hug. And I got one.
So now, I feel forgiven. I feel like a good person again.
It's a nice feeling. Now I can concentrate all my healing energy on you guys, who unfortunately have more problems than me.
Let's not forget the Full MHTL Operation. Or the Full MTLH Operation. Whichever y'all want. :D

The Black Widows Attack!

Wow... Apparently, a female black widow can have up to 25 mates a day... So I guess they're kinda like spider prostitutes... Weird... But they don't have to worry about getting tricked! They just kill the guy when they're done with them... Ok then...

Now that the random fact is out of the way, I'm glad to see that Taylor's been forgiven. I mean, you've been in a WAY better mood since then. Not so many of your insane mood swings... Which is definitely a good thing... I wonder if that was your problem all along... The whole thing eating at you... But, I'm just glad that it's all over now...

So now, we focus on the full MTHL operation. But, we need the cooperation of a certain phunk sister whom all our efforts are for... 'Cause I have a good feeling that it'll work. Heather and I talked about it, and when we talk about people getting together, it tends to happen... Remember the whole thing with Taylor? So please, trust us will you?

Fortune Cookie quote of the day: It's better to have loved and lost than to have never have loved at all.

I think that sums up my argument... Though it is her decision in the end... I really hope you agree with us... Remember, giving up is not one of my strong points...

And thanks for your help Lekey... Though it IS a bit annoying when you try to set me up with people, I know you're just trying to help. And you're also keeping my eyes open to the possibilities, even though some of those possibilities are really ones that I want to consider... But thanks anyway...

Also, sorry in advance if I go off on some random rant to you. I have a very long tolerance, but some things just build up after awhile and I have to either rant to get it off my system, or I'll blow up at whomever dropped the last straw on the camel's back... But just remember, when I rant, I'm only listing the bad things. I KNOW all the good things and reasons behind them, but I just need to get those bad things off of my chest. I only have to have about one rant per month, and maybe two if I'm really stressed, but please bear with me while I have them, 'cause they really lower my stress bar and should placate me for the rest of the month.

Okay, glad to have told you about that. And thanks to my non-phunk friend who let me rant today, whom I don't think reads this blog, but deserved the thanks anyway. So, I think that I'm done for now... So I'll leave my awesome random icons and say bye!

This one's for you guys. You know who you are.

See you guys!

#1 rule for a flat stomach

Hahaha... my title is hilarious. It was just on the side of the screen when I was checkin' out the amazing pointless facts. I don't really know how to get a flat stomach!! I know who to ask though... :) Which leads into my next subject. His parents pose an issue. CRAP.

Anyway, that's the least of my worries. Okay, no its not, but I want to post about something else right now. I have 2 tests and a quiz tomorrow. Scratch that, two quizzes. So who is having a blast at school??? *dripping with sarcasm* Was middle school seriously this much work? Cuz I don't like it. I want to spend time with important people in my life, like you guys! Instead I'm stuck running from cross country straight to like 2 hrs of homework.

Laura, I told you. We will find someone for you!!! I don't know who yet, but who knows? Maybe the sensitive hot emo guy of your dreams will magically show up this month somehow. Or maybe you'll start realizing that theres this person... and you kinda love to spend time with them... and you think they like you too... and then, magically, one day after cross country, you guys will have this weird almost dating thing going on!!! Oh, wait. That's me. But I guarantee something similarly delightful. It fills the heart with estatic joyness. Until someone's parents go all parent-y!! Then you're like, CRAP.

Most likely you will not have this problem. Because you are like a parent's dream. Except to your own. And I mean that in the best of ways. :)

I think that two people need to get on this blog and frickin POST!!!

That's all for now. byeees.
-L

Gasparani Was EVIL!

Lekey, you know we all have admin privileges. So if you REALLY cared that much, you could change it. *slaps self upside the head for giving Lekey ideas* Crap, my computer says your name is a misspelling. We'll have to fix that. *ctrl-clicks and presses add* There we go! Your name is a word now.

Sorry for putting certain words that start with a B really big in my title Laura. I guess you got your revenge with the random fact about how the snakes have two penises. I, personally, didn't know snakes had them at all, because you can't see them when you hold one... Maybe they were female snakes. Although we did have a discussion about how maybe mermaids had a little flap.... *gets off on a tangent* Sorry.

Laur-Laur, your posts are long because you always make lists. If you didn't press "enter" so much, they would be the same length but not as long! Or something.

So, I'm trying to decide if it was worth it to miss school in order to sing some 500 year old Latin song written by some dead Italian guy named Gasparani a million times. Although the food was delish and I had several million cookies. And ice cream. And pizza and fries and chicken tenders and chocolate pudding and grape juice. :D Just thought I'd make you all jealous. Except Laura. And shame on Hannah for texting during class! *shame finger* And while you were doing a make up test! Gasp!

I love all you guys.

Bored...

Okay... I'm sitting at my parent's office, bored out of my mind... This happens way too often... At least I have computer access this time... But whatever...

I'm sorry that people are bitches Taylor... Honestly, you won fair and square, and it's been a year now... But, we just have to ignore it and move on with our lives... Not much else we can do in this situation. If you fight back, it'll never end.

But, if it gets too bad, I'm the girl to come to when it comes to secretive revenge... *grins evilly*

And Lekey, it really doesn't matter much. Nobody who reads this blog knows who you really are except a few of our friends to whom we've given the URL to. So it doesn't matter too much... *turns away and laughs at Taylor's comment for a few seconds before turning around and composing herself*

Anyway, I'm in a frustrated and depressive mood right now, topped off with a big bottle of Ale 8. And now I'm in a weird mix of hyperness and depressiveness... It's really quite odd... So I'm gonna randomly talk about things for awhile...

Anyway, a lot of good and bad things have been going on... For me at least... I'll list a few...


Bad:
1.) I'm still single. (doesn't bother me as much as it does most people, but annoying all the same.) 2.) I'm bored out of my mind. (Right now, and in school. But not with you guys...)
3.) My mom got me a freakin' personal trainer. (NOT NICE!!! I'm sore all over...)
4.) My mom STILL won't leave me alone for more than 5 minutes. (I think she's afraid I'm going emo or something... Wonder what gave her that idea?)
5.) I need more caffeine. (Must. Have. Mountain. Dew.)
6.) I don't want to do pointless homework. (Why does a robot need to know about the Ottoman Empire anyway?)
7.) Did I mention I'm still single? (I think it was somewhere up there...)
8.) I forgot my iPod at home. (This stupid computer doesn't work without headphones...)
9.) I want this to be an odd numbered list... (I, unlike SOME people, like disorder.)

Good:
1.) I have friends who love me. (*hugs*)
2.) I now am bored enough to actually respond to the texts that I get in class. (It's funny how so many teachers never notice...)
3.) My awesomely crazy aunt is here for the week. (It's like dealing with an older me... And a lot of Courtney... ;) *smiles mischievously*)
4.) I can let my frustrations out in this blog. (Just not in so much detail...)
5.) My Aunt brought her cute little dog Baxter! (He's soooooo cute!)
6.) I've got a plan to annoy my mother... (It involves chocolate, and the lack thereof... *Grins evilly*)
7.) I get to make another odd numbered list! (Yay imperfection!)


So... That made me feel a little better... But I should probably go ahead and end this post, seeing as it's everlasting again... But not before my signature icons!

See you guys!

P.S. Check out the "Random Facts" Thing! It's pretty weird...

Aww.

I apologize Tay. That must suck... a lot. I have only one other thing to say: BITCHES! Why you no come to Sayf??? Yeah, I know, band something or other... I guess I can't criticize, right? Hahahahahaha! Its worth it to miss one retreat. :)
Okay, two things to say: TAYLOR, I appreciate your little postscript, which is on the internet for the oh, I don't know, ENTIRE FREEKIN' WORLD to see!!! Thanks a lot, I love you too.

Some People Are Bitches.

Sorrysorrysorry Lekey! *kisshugsadface* My sincerest apologies. YOUR situation. Hmph. I only wish mine wasn't so complicated...
Because Autumn and Bethany told me at AKG...
That someone has been saying some things about me...
And even though she wrote a note that made me think otherwise, I'm now pretty damn well convinced that she is a BITCH.

Okay. I'm PRETTY sure you know who I'm talking about. I'll tell you more later, if I feel like repeating it. *sigh*
I guess I could have put all that in my last post, but I was too worried about y'all. :D

HANNAH YOU HAVE TO GET BETTER!

I believe I'm done.
PS Lekey, your boobs are unclean. :D
PPS I saw this ad, on Gaia, and it was one of those things where you have to choose yes or no and get a prize, and the question was, "Are you on Team Edward?" I WAS LIKE YAAAAAYYYYY!!!

I found some Icons!

Hmmph.

Taylor. You put one or two people who have found the person they want to 'be with'. There's three. My situation is different, yes, and it doesn't mean I want to forever, but for the time being, he ( you guys know who I mean) is who I want to be with. :) I'm getting sick of waiting though. I might just pull a Taylor and do it myself...

On the brighter side, SAYF IS IN LIKE 3 DAYS!!! We're gonna have a couple new additions to our rowdy band of Quaker teens this time too. How exciting!!! Sayf has been a central part of my life ever since I went to my first retreat. I sincerely hope ya'll find the same levels of warmth, caring, acceptance, and compassion that I was delighted to discover there my first time. It's going to be great having you there. :)

Until next posting, I remain faithfully yours,
Lekey S. L.

I AM NOT AN EXAMPLE!!!!

JUST BECAUSE ONE OR TWO OF YOUR FRIENDS HAS APPARENTLY FOUND THE ONE THEY'RE MEANT TO BE WITH DOESN'T MEAN THAT IF YOU HAVEN'T YOU NEVER WILL!!!!

Alright. My heart weeps for you, but Berea is a tiny town and there's a whole six point whatever billion people out there that you've NEVER MET! Remember, we still have 3 and 7/8 years of high school plus 2-4-6-8 years of college(I put 8 for Laura. It takes time to be a robot)plus the REST OF OUR LIVES! My philosophy is that the reason people mostly meet their spouse in college is because you generally meet them BECAUSE you share interests and stuff. COLLEGECOLLEGECOLLEGECOLLEGECOLLEGECOLLEGECOLLEGE! It'll be here before you know it. Also, the lovely "one" might move here in Junior year for all you know. That would certainly be more convenient.

Well. I hope THAT helps. I'm just helping Laura's point. Laura, you can be the book writer! Me and Heather can edit. :) YAAAYYYY GRAMMAR NERDS!!!!

[edit] WHAT HAPPENED TO THE PURPLE!?!?!?!?

An Unforseen Event!

Thanks for adoring my post Lekey... And of course I couldn't see that coming. I've never seen him and you together. Or him at all much really... So I really couldn't use my boyfriend ESP.... *sighs* I like being able to predict things too...

Though what did I say about guys liking the new girl, huh? The advice that was so immediatly dismissed... *gives that "I told you so" look*

So then... I suppose it's Hannah next? Yes Lekey, I know that you said me too, but my ESP doesn't work on myself, unfortunetly... Or more like I don't let it work on myself... But whatever...

Anyway, I'll keep my eyes out for a potential guy for Hannah... Or well, my sixth sense or intuition, or whatever it is...

Hey, now we can't tease Lekey about trees anymore, can we? Dang it! That was fun too... Oh well, I'm sure that we can come up with something new... *Grins evilly*

When all this is over and done with, we need to write a book about it... We got plenty of plot twists here, you know? We just have to hope that it ends happily ever after...

*sighs again* And I depressed myself again... Okay, maybe I do need a boyfriend... Only take the maybe out of that sentence...

But whatever... I can wait. I've waited before, and I can wait again. I'm in fate's hands at the moment... And we'll see where they drop me... But if tarot cards are anything to go by, then they'll probably drop me in a nice place. *smiles and spaces out*

Anyway, I'm glad that you can now have the wonders of coupleness. It's nice isn't it? And, I know that sometime, hopefully soon, I'll join you guys in coupledom... But I'm not gonna be impatient like some people. You know who you are...

So ttyl!

hahahaha HA!

What a wonderful world, huh? Laura, I completely ADORE your last post. Actually a lot of things make me smile right now that usually don't. Everything seems the same but better. Lalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaa! Is it always like this, all surreally happy? Its like a drug substitute. Next up, Hannah and Laura. I am on the case, because I don't have to worry about anything else now.

So, do you guys understand why I was spazzing out all day, especially in the gym? YAAAAAY! Laura I think your boyfriend ESP is malfunctioning. Although idk who could have seen that one coming... :) Hopefully it'll start working again soon, because you and Hannah will be needing it.



The immensely unimportant RHCP dude has a name that will not be revealed for the entire internet to read. That would be extremely embarassing. *Shrinks away in horror*

Taylor and Heather, I am proud to sort of join your clan. Hopefully y'all are glad to have me. AHAHAHAHA this rocks.

I never have any cool icons like you guys... dang. So I pull this truly ridiculous posting to a close with a digital hug for some of my favorite people in the world.

You all are some of the most trustworthy and kind people on this planet. I WUV you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

Really...

Okay, really people... What's with the whole depressing boyfriend talk?! We are perfectly able to function without a guy. Besides, look at the statistics! Name at least one adult that you know that has never been on a date. Can you? I can't.

I know some that have never been married, but they've had plenty of dates... And just haven't found the right one yet. We're 14! We have all of our lives to find a guy! Look at the difference in ages with Taylor's parents. The person we're meant to be with could've not even been born yet! Though at this point, that kinda seems gross... Okay forget that...

But the point is, who cares if we don't have a boyfriend! We don't need them!

Oh, who am I kidding... I care. I'm single too, remember... But, I think that I am right, whether it helps or not... We just have to have patience... A lot of patience... *sighs*

Man, now I'm depressing myself... Sorry if I'm not being a very good fortune cookie... But this cookie is sick, tired, and has about 8 little boys running around the house that are going to spend the night with her brother... All of this equals bad fortunes... So, as an advance warning, I'm probably gonna tell it like it is today, rather than sugar-coating things like I tend to do...

But I'll try to be a little optimistic. I'm glad that you're liking school better now Lekey. Don't forget the G-FES... And the RHCP guy... We really need to do more research on him, by the way... How much do we know, anyway? We never even call him by his name... Um... What is it again?

Oh well... But you do sound kinda like a book of proverbs Heather... Honestly, you were way worse back before you got a boyfriend. And with the whole "we're just 14" thing, I could say the same thing to you, only under a different context... But I suppose I should just be glad that he's making you more optimistic...

You know, if you think about it, maybe things become bad just so they can get better... What was that our teacher said? "When something is destroyed, you just rebuild it better." Something like that...

Remember, the bubonic plague had to occur before the Renaissance came into being. The English colonies had to start a revolution before the United States could be born. A darkness must fall before the dawn can come... So why can't that work in our lives?

Thing is, it can. Remember, you have to be single before you can find the right guy.

Wow, I didn't think that I could be that optimistic... But I hope it helps a little... Anyway, this looks really long, so I should probably end it here with my usual icon advice.... So see you later!