Sunday, November 7, 2010

I see our freedom in my sight.

After this year, I'll have one year left.
Then I'll be out of here, and you better believe I won't be looking back.
I hate this home. I don't even think I can call it home, home is where you're supposed to feel, happy, secure, loved.
I feel these things more at school.
And hell, today at Flara's I felt like I had a real family. People I can sit there and talk to, about anything.
I told her all of the problems I'm having with my home life.
I don't tell anyone about those problems. (Except for Heather.)
But I sat there and I spilled everything out.
I want my family to be like that.
Today, I've never felt so accepted.
I could sit there, talk about things I liked, the things I disliked.
These people here.
They aren't my family.
This year, Ms. Flara has been more of a mother to me than my actual mother ever has.
I talked to her, about everything, she didn't judge, didn't make comments, she just listened.

That's all I want.
I want my family to be like what I had today.
People who won't judge me.
People who won't call me a failure.
And most definitely have faith in me, and who will listen.

-Hannah
xo


1 comment:

Lekey said...

Hey. I haven't been on the blog in SO long. Obviously. But I love you. I feel like I've abandoned you, we haven't talked in FOREVER. It wasn't on purpose, and if you're mad, I do understand. I haven't been the best of friends lately. But reading this made me realize how important it is to feel loved. Ugh, I don't know. I just love you, and I'm sorry.

-L